LUHE:
Thanks for explaining the why and wherefore of your poem.
Much of what we write comes from a not-so-good place. If I hadn't suffered through divorce and my questionings about who I am, there would be a huge blank spot on CC's account. My poetry of that particular epoch sprang from anguish:
"You gutted my heart and let me die of love's sweet poison."
I'm quite all right now emotionally and find -- sadly? -- I have spilled that grief in full and have nothing more to say . . .
Your apt use of metaphor takes you from the realms of commonplace prose into the stratosphere of sublime poetic expression. Like your use of seasons, I referred to my spring till winter to illustrate my lifetime love of books.
BTW, are you familiar with "prose poetry" and how you might expand into an even broader field of self-expression?
Best.